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fmadrlj2008-07-12 02:28 pm
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Doushite Tsumi ga aru no darou? Doushite batsu ga aru no darou?
*...He shouldn't have gone to the cemetery. That was the worst place to go, especially with his mind racing like this. A mind idle, without time to ponder life and death, especially with so much time to attain knowledge, tends to go into dangerous places fast when you let it. He had been thinking dangerous thoughts lately as it was.
...
What if he could stay?
If he could stay here, would he?
Did he want to go back, just to suffer through dying over and over again?
What if in this world, he could grow old and die, without any real repercussions?
Dangerous thoughts went to dangerous deeds. Hands that didn't touch alcohol were touching it by the shotful, drop after precious drop downed down a parched throat.
If it had meant to remove the dangerous thoughts, it did. But instead it made for a man not used to extreme amounts of alcohol leaning against a wall, panting heavily with a face flushed enough to resemble...something red and not cliche.*
{OOC: Yes, have a drunk!Fons. But be warned...any Eds that come in contact will probably be gromped on sight. >_>}
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What if he could stay?
If he could stay here, would he?
Did he want to go back, just to suffer through dying over and over again?
What if in this world, he could grow old and die, without any real repercussions?
Dangerous thoughts went to dangerous deeds. Hands that didn't touch alcohol were touching it by the shotful, drop after precious drop downed down a parched throat.
If it had meant to remove the dangerous thoughts, it did. But instead it made for a man not used to extreme amounts of alcohol leaning against a wall, panting heavily with a face flushed enough to resemble...something red and not cliche.*
{OOC: Yes, have a drunk!Fons. But be warned...any Eds that come in contact will probably be gromped on sight. >_>}
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Before he knows it, he's crying.*
...I don't want to die! S-Scared...D-Dun wanna die again...I wanna get it right...Wanna make him happy...Wanna do what's right...'M scared...
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H-hey! Love, calm down! -he doesn't want to freak out, but damn it, he doesn't know how to handle people when they cry!-
D-don't be scared! You'll get it right, love! He'll be happy, everything will be fine! Please, please don't cry...!
Al you need is loooooooooooooooooooooooooove~ *shot*
...I don't want to........
Don't want to..................I..............
xD
You won't...promise you, you won't...
-his voice is soft, trying to sooth the other. Edward tilted his head, bringing up his other hand to gently wipe away the tears-
Walking on very very very thin ice here, Ed...>:3
He's not the one he knows. His mind knows this.
But.....*
...............I............................
Ed's too oblivious to notice really x3
...what is it?
This will be his downfall. And Alfons's 8D
*Alfons leans forward, mouths close enough to touch, but he hesitates, before backing up slightly and blushing...even with the alcohol.*
Nicer 'n' my Ed. Never did that sorta thing for me...
.......
Sorry.
Could that possibly be a good thing? 83
...
S'kay...
-He probably shouldn't do this, tempt the other, seeing as Alfons was drunk and probably didn't have a clue what he was doing but...-
D-did...you want...a k-kiss from me? -Ed blushes darker, glancing away-
...or from your Ed...?
You know, tempting him was a very very bad thing.
Ed will regret it later, no doubt
...
-he pulls away a bit, though only to correct their positions and be able to kiss Alfons properly-
Alfons won't even remember. :3
Hell, it was almost a definite thing that he won't remember. But...
His mind was floundering for some sort of warmth and contact. He needed something...someone. He was scared, alone...and...
He needed...*
That doesn't mean Ed won't, poor guy...
He was happy to provide Alfons with all the warmth and comfort he needed, and, just to prove that, he wrapped his arms around the Alfons' larger frame, tugging him closer, continuing to move his lips softly over the other's-
But Alfons is still happy for the comfort nonetheless!
Tender.
He clings more to Edward, feeling himself become dizzy from the bubbling in his stomach, the feelings in his head and the racing of his own heart.*
...
Love you...
Which makes Ed happy!
...l-love...?
-He stuttered a bit, staring in surprise at Alfons and...felt butterflies swarming in his stomach and his heart feel like it would beat out of his chest. Someone...someone loved him? It was almost...too hard to believe...he barely even knew Alfons but...-
L...love you too...
And makes Alfons very, very happy.
Love.
He loved him.
He was gentle with him, he was kind to him...
...Had to be a dream. A dream.
But...was a good dream.*
So much. Love you. Love you...
It's just a happy lovefest! ...sorta...
-Edward managed to hug Alfons tighter, pulling him closer. As immature the thought was, he didn't want to let him go.
It was a silly hope. Alfons was drunk and...probably would forget this, or maybe even tell him he wasn't the right Edward that he wanted and...
He shook his head, burying his face into the crook of the other's neck, pressing a light kiss there.-
Love you...
Oh hell yes >:3
That small kiss made him shiver, but his body felt relaxed...buzzed...he didn't know if it was from the alcohol or something else, but he felt happy.
He didn't want to be let go.
Always, always, wanted to be held.
Just like this...
His eyes start to droop, taller frame leaning more against Edward's.*
Don't...leave me...Don't go.
Yay!
...won't...will stay with you for as long as you want me to.
-He glanced up, smiling a bit more when he noticed Alfons was starting to drift off. He held the other up, though, content and happy with the warmth the body provided his own-