Doushite Tsumi ga aru no darou? Doushite batsu ga aru no darou?

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*...He shouldn't have gone to the cemetery. That was the worst place to go, especially with his mind racing like this. A mind idle, without time to ponder life and death, especially with so much time to attain knowledge, tends to go into dangerous places fast when you let it. He had been thinking dangerous thoughts lately as it was.

...

What if he could stay?

If he could stay here, would he?

Did he want to go back, just to suffer through dying over and over again?

What if in this world, he could grow old and die, without any real repercussions?

Dangerous thoughts went to dangerous deeds. Hands that didn't touch alcohol were touching it by the shotful, drop after precious drop downed down a parched throat.

If it had meant to remove the dangerous thoughts, it did. But instead it made for a man not used to extreme amounts of alcohol leaning against a wall, panting heavily with a face flushed enough to resemble...something red and not cliche.*



{OOC: Yes, have a drunk!Fons. But be warned...any Eds that come in contact will probably be gromped on sight. >_>}

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*.....He doesn't remember. Of course he doesn't. Nobody does. He just dies and everyone forgets.*

...Dun remember either.

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...you don't...look so well...

Come on, you need to sit down and get away from here. Cemeteries are depressing enough as it is. -he eyes the bottle in the other's hand curiously, frowning- You shouldn't drink that, either, it's not good for you.

-he mutters a bit under his breath, taking the bottle and pulling Alfons along-

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B-But...

It makes me f'get.

*But Alfons doesn't fight, rather allows himself to get pulled along. He's helpless like this anyways.*

Makes me f'get dyin'.

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...

-he stops, turning to stare up at Alfons, looking completely confused-

...forget dying? What are you talking about, you're fine...

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...Always die. 'ver 'n' 'ver. Always remember. Always die.

*He pauses, as if remembering something...

He visibly flinches, shaking his head.*

Not 'til he's home. 'nd world's safe.

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...I...-he chews on his lower lip not sure what to say. What can he say to that?-

...t-till who's safe, love?

-he continues to walk, pulling the other to a side walk, sitting down and gently pulling Alfons along with him-

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T'Til Ed's safe.

*Alfons leans against Edward, but says nothing more, simply enjoying the warmth...though he felt awful warm already. But Edward was his own type of warm. Sweet, sweetly warm.*

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You mean your world's Ed? Why isn't he...

-he trails off a bit, blushing lightly when the other leaned against him. He lets it go though, hesitantly wrapping an arm around Alfons' shoulders, running a hand through his hair in a hopefully soothing manner-

...why isn't he safe?

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*Alfons clings to him, wrapping an arm around his waist, shivering at the feeling of those fingers in his hair.

...His Ed never did that.

But...

'S was still sweet.*

...Won't be safe...'til he's in his world. Appeared in mine. 'll keep dyin' 'til he's there.

...Don' mind...

S'if it's for him.

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-Edward tries to keep himself from blushing more when he felt the Alfons' arm around him, instead trying to focus on Alfons' words and the matter at hand...-

...keep dying? How do you die more than once?

Th-that's kind of you though, to risk your life more than once for him. He's lucky to have someone care for him so much...

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Dunno.

*Alfons hugs him closer, nuzzling him, clinging to that scent.*

Jus...jus do. I die...then I wake up, 'n I'm a kid again. Know what's gonna happen.

...

Bu' he never knows. Only tol' him once. Prolly doesn't remember...Thinks I'm 17, bu' 'm 353. Too old. Dun wanna keep dyin' anymore...

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-Edward manages to blush darkly at that, glancing off to the side-

...353? Wow... Must be a real hell, having to relive everything over again...I don't blame you, for not wanting to die anymore... I don't think drinking will help you too much, y'know.

Still, even if he doesn't know. Isn't it enough that you do care about him?

-he hugs Alfons close, continuing to stroke his hair-

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Yeah. Gotta repeat...'til I get it right. 'til the world's fixed. Only I c'n do it. But dun' wanna die. Keep 'membering...Havta remember. 'Else I won' get it right.

...

S'true. But...

*He holds Ed close, closer...he wants to be close. It's comforting...*

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-Edward hugs Alfons tighter, frowning and remaining quiet for a moment. He doesn't know what to say and hates it, hates not being able to do anything to help, especially when Alfons was so obviously in pain-

Sssh...it'll be okay. You'll get it right. Then you won't have to keep dying...then you'll be able to live out your life and not repeat again. Everything will be okay.

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*His body shakes once. It starts to shake...hard, harder hardest...trembling and shaking and his eyes sting and he wants to hold it back but he can't and...

Before he knows it, he's crying.*

...I don't want to die! S-Scared...D-Dun wanna die again...I wanna get it right...Wanna make him happy...Wanna do what's right...'M scared...

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-Edward blinks down at Alfons in confusion when he feels him start shaking and he stares, wide eyed when Alfons starts crying and...oh crap-

H-hey! Love, calm down! -he doesn't want to freak out, but damn it, he doesn't know how to handle people when they cry!-

D-don't be scared! You'll get it right, love! He'll be happy, everything will be fine! Please, please don't cry...!

Al you need is loooooooooooooooooooooooooove~ *shot*

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*He hugs Ed still, crying. His tears soften but his voice does not...still harsh and sad with his tears, some stuck in his throat.*

...I don't want to........

Don't want to..................I..............

xD

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-Edward hugs Alfons tightly, rubbing his back now-

You won't...promise you, you won't...

-his voice is soft, trying to sooth the other. Edward tilted his head, bringing up his other hand to gently wipe away the tears-

Walking on very very very thin ice here, Ed...>:3

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*Alfons looks up, watery eyes trying to dry...though streaks are still down his face, and he looks at Ed, almost hopefully.

He's not the one he knows. His mind knows this.

But.....*

...............I............................

Ed's too oblivious to notice really x3

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-Edward gives a small smile, wiping away the remaining tears. At least he got him to stop...-

...what is it?

This will be his downfall. And Alfons's 8D

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....

*Alfons leans forward, mouths close enough to touch, but he hesitates, before backing up slightly and blushing...even with the alcohol.*

Nicer 'n' my Ed. Never did that sorta thing for me...

.......

Sorry.

Could that possibly be a good thing? 83

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-Edward stares quietly at the other as he moved closer, blushing even darker, gulping quietly. He blinks a few times in confusion when Alfons backs away and he tilts his head-

...

S'kay...

-He probably shouldn't do this, tempt the other, seeing as Alfons was drunk and probably didn't have a clue what he was doing but...-

D-did...you want...a k-kiss from me? -Ed blushes darker, glancing away-

...or from your Ed...?

You know, tempting him was a very very bad thing.

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*Alfons says nothing...simply lunges forward in that drunken haze, nearly falling down as his lips plant onto Ed's...perhaps a bit awkwardly.*

Ed will regret it later, no doubt

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-Edward managed to let out a surprised yelp when Alfons lunged at him, eyes wide and glasses nearly falling off his face. He blushes darkly, staring in surprise, barely able to keep himself and Alfons up-

...

-he pulls away a bit, though only to correct their positions and be able to kiss Alfons properly-

Alfons won't even remember. :3

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*He kisses Edward softly, trying to pull all his 300 years of experience of kissing that man over and over...but in his stupor, it probably was pretty hazy.

Hell, it was almost a definite thing that he won't remember. But...

His mind was floundering for some sort of warmth and contact. He needed something...someone. He was scared, alone...and...

He needed...*